A Moment of Clarity

I’m not sure about anyone reading this but every so often I have one of those moments when everything just makes sense; a moment where I appear to cut through all the bullshit I tell myself and see what is going on around me, where I want to be and how to get there.

I had one of those moments recently, the problem I find is my inability to take in all the information. Invariably I will remember fragments but what use is the part without the sum? One thing I recall was the realisation that I have to apply some focus to what I do in life. In much the same way as I try and remember everything and in so doing I end up remembering less, I am also not very good at sticking to one thing.

When I read a book I usually end up reading 2 or 3 simultaneously and often fail to finish any as I end up confusing myself with the plots. The same with TV shows, I’ll watch 4 episodes of one show back-to-back then an episode of another show before returning the the next instalment of the first show again. Likewise when learning to do something, rather than learn one thing at a time I will often  assure myself that not only can I teach myself how to play saxophone, I can also throw in teaching myself how to speak Italian whilst also trying to learn to draw in a manga style. Needless to say I am pretty rubbish at all three.

So, now I know what I need to do, how do I decide what to focus on? I can easily drop the manga drawing, I don’t know who I thought I was fooling but the user manual for the software I bought causes my eyes to glaze over just by looking at the table of contents; I don’t want to read the equivalent of a phone book just to draw, it was supposed to be easier for me…lesson learnt!